I have always loved the feeling of the holidays. There is something in the air that asks us to forgive those that have wronged us and open our hearts just a little more. There is no better feeling than loving someone unconditionally and I think this time of year allows us to do so with an unfailing grace that lies within us all. As I grow older, I have found that the holiday season becomes more of a burden than of a joy. In the rush of everyday life, I seem to get lost in the mazes of bills, school, work and more work. I have yearned for feelings to well up inside of me like they did when I was a child and make the magic of this time of year almost too much to bear. Except I might have been the only kid who was genuinely terrified of Santa.
But this year was different. I wanted to feel different, see differently and open my heart a little more. I may not always say or do the right things when it comes to my friends and family, but I wanted them to know how much I really love them. With Best Friend Jenny moving, Andi and Desi going back to KY and Andy andy moving, I felt a sense of panic, like it was all slipping away. But then I discovered that I still have friends right here, right in my own backyard. And even when I don't agree with them, or cant see them as often, I am still reminded of the blessings they have brought to me throughout the year. So this year, I am feeling like I did as a child (minus the terror of Santa). And even if I cant afford gifts for everyone, I am hoping the love I have for them is more than enough to show just how much I care.
Happy Holidays
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